Oh, Camp

I am sitting here on my bed, in my room, at my house thinking of what life is all about, to me anyway. I think of work, church, sitting around and family. I dont ever think of the little things. Like today, I went to pick up Gabrielle from her week of camp at Quartz Mountain Christian Camp. She had a blast, we talked about it for a couple hours actually. She told me everything, well pretty much, which guys were cute, whoe she hung out with, her best friend Ashley's emotional moment due to a lesson on Family and moving. It was great just to sit and listen to what fun Gab had for a while.

I miss camp, I only went a couple times, and I have been on plenty of retreats at camps to make me miss it. I do encourage anyone to go to camp, to me it is a life changing experience. I can not really explain to you about camp in my eyes, it is outdoors and sticky, and gross but you really do not think about that while you are there, and may I remind you, I am talking about church camp and only church camp (this is the only camp I have ever liked... I HATED girl scouts camp). You have quiet time, yes quiet time, not necessarily a nap or anything, time to think, pray, read your Bible, simple things like that. It is a very moving moment for some. I have begun thinking about my future a lot lately and how I want to be a better person and all. I feel that if I start now I have a better chance of a change then if I start later on in life. I have a 12 year old sister looking at me everyday, my mom helped me realize tonight that I am an example to Gab, and I realized I am not being the example I should be.

I have been thinking of work, my future husband (to whom which I really dont know who he is yet), my finances, my house, everything that goes into your future and what I am going to make of my own. It has made me put a hold on the life I was living to a new one. I have begun to move on and see that it is time for it. I know I have said that before, but I am actually not just saying it this time. I have been reading my Bible, and I have been enjoying going to church, and being with people from church and hanging out with people that I go to church with. It is a great feeling to know you are wanted, and that people like you that you are around only at church, and now not just at church. I am beginning to love life more and I want to explore more in life and see what I can do!!

Well Erin and I decided we wanted to go on the Mission Trip to Mississippi in July, so we went into the youth ministers office to leave him a note to tell him we were going to be 2 of the 25 who went on the trip, and we noticed his office was, oh, ummm DULL... so we livined it up a little, we made colorful signs and stuff and put them on the walls and on the drawers and made a cute sign that we majorly taped to his door for everyone to see... it was great bonding time with a person that I like and that likes me and with a person who likes to hang out whenever and we get along great. I love it!! Well I am off to bed, I have to get up in the morning to begin redoing my room... I am painting it and "redecorating" it kind of... I hope that I like it, if I dont... I have to live with it!

Some Thoughts...

My Dream:
To be a Youth Ministers Wife

What I want in a husband:
Faithfulness
christian
loves food
family oriented
truthful
outstanding in every way
knows how to cook (ha ha)
loves church
puts god first
taller than I am
can make me laugh
carries on a good conversation
will support me in any way
will be there for me in hard times and good
will keep my company when no one else will
will be my best friend until the end
will surprise me with yellow roses (love those things)
will do his best to be the best to me
~ I am sure there is more, but right now I just can not think about anything.

My Goals:
Graduate college
get a good job
support my family
be a faithful wife
be a faithful christian

Any suggestions????

Thinking...

I work with a couple people I go to church with, and I love it. They are a good influence on me. I hang out with Erin at church and some outside of church, like last night. We went into Josh's office (the youth intern) and we noticed it was plain and dull, and we didnt like it! We were just going to leave him a note to tell him we were going on the mission trip. By the end of the evening we made him clorful things to brighten his office up and on Wednesday we are going to hang them in his office. He is at camo this week. I am kind of hoping it will make him smile!!

I like the fact that I am making new friends. I really like to hang out with them. There are a couple that I hang out with that I dont like some of the things they do, but every person has friends like that. But they dont make me do anything, they dont make me feel bad for not doing what they are at all. I like the fact that they are like that! I also like the fact that I am making friends at church, I mean I am getting along with them and wanting to be around them and do things with them and the youth and what not. Erin was asked by her dad to be mentor to the youth and to be around them more for another person for support, and I think that by me hanging out with her and being around that, that I am seeing some things that need to be different in my life.

We are starting a college class next sunday, this should be fun. With Andy as my dad, I am a little stuborn and I know how I was taught and what I was taught. The teachers, one of them I have a small problem with, he is not completely on the right track, and I dont like that fact. I dont want all of us college people to be taught something that is a little shaky so we are going to see how this goes... maybe it will be better than I am thinking. Yes the teacher is a good teacher, and a nice man but some of his thinkings make me wonder! We will see, I plan to be doing some studying on some things this week, well to see what I know and how I can support my comments and what not. I know some, but I should know more than what I do know.

Well I am off to work, I have to work at 3 so, it is time for me to leave. Hope that summer is going good for everyone. I am having a pretty good one. Oh... I have had wrist problems for the last week and a half or so, so I went to the doctor on Friday. I have tendonitis and a little carpal tunnel forming in my right wrist. It hurts, and it is a bummer, but I am dealing with it. I have medication to take, and it is the grossest stuff I have ever taken, but oh well. I have orientation @ Oklahoma Christian the 24th... keep that in your prayers, as well as me. I need them, thank you and I will be praying for all of you!!! Love you all!!

Lazer Quest

Lazer Quest---- with a bunch of younger teens! WOW!!! I had some fun tonight, I was a "chaperone" with Erin tonight with the youth group. We went and played Lazer Tag and had some fun. It was great, even though Thing 1 and 2 are not very good (Erin and I). I am glad that I went tonight! Well hanging out with the youth group and Rin and all has made me think different once again... I am not who I should be. I know I have said it over and over, but I am looking for the right time for a Change, and I keep thinking now... but it is hard to transition! I am working on it though, I have faith in myself... oh write that down, I gave myself a compliment!

Read my bible
pray daily
read my bible
pray daily
keep up the good work
and so on....